How can two words hurt me so much?
“Shut up.”
People say them everyday.
But how come when he said them
It hurt me so much?

I was laughing
Smiling
Talking
Having fun.
But he said those two words
And time seemed to freeze.

I had to turn around
And hide my head
So no one would see the tears.
My friends were worried
So I had to smile
And laugh.

I told them I was fine
And they believed me.
I guess they didn’t see
The tears in my eyes.

How can two words hurt me so much?
I guess it’s ‘cause he’s such a big part of my life.
And now he’s mad at me.
I try to keep him out of my mind
And not talk or think about him.

But I can’t.
I see him
I hear him
Everywhere.

And when I see him
In the hall
Or on the ramp
I turn away
But I’m so scared.

I’m scared that he’ll believe
That I’m mad at him
And that’ll get him madder.
But I’m not mad
I just want to stay away from him
For a while
So no one will see the tears.

And no one will see
How much those two words hurt me.